I know that I haven’t written anything in a long while. That is mostly because not a whole lot has changed. Life has trudged on in the same fashion that it has been for the past year. Nothing has happened on my relationship front. I haven’t got any new leads on a job somewhere. I have put out lots of resumes and cover letters to no avail. I’m afraid that I’m not qualified or too qualified for the positions that I’m applying for.
My weight loss has stalled again. And it’s usually over the tremendous amounts of stress that I’ve been under. I’ve been trying very hard not to stress eat but it doesn’t always work. I did get a Nutribullet and I have been using that for the past week and a half with good results so far. In the very least I am getting in all of my fruits and veggies for the day. I have even thought about doing the Simply Filling Technique from Weight Watchers (since I am still making my weekly appearances there). I have a feeling that doing SFT would be hard considering that I am around regular food anyways when it comes to feeding my son.
I have been trying to make some money with Amazon Mechanical Turk and have been getting at least a couple of dollars a day that I’m putting away for work clothes, stuff that I’ll need for my next house, and my emergencies. If you follow my Avon page on Facebook I have really ramped up posts there and on Twitter. I post great deals in both locations. Because saving money is important, it doesn’t matter how much you have.
I have also pulled out some of my writing from way back, and have started trying to formulate ways that I can storyboard it for novel ideas. She snorted unbelievingly. Writing is hard, because if it was easy everyone would do it. I will try to post more here because believe it or not I do like to write.
I found myself on the scale again today. As it is at least that way every Saturday. I already kind of knew what was going to face me when I stepped on it before I even left the house for my official Weight Watcher weigh in. The whole week I tried my hardest to make sure that I tracked everything that went in my mouth. And with good reason. Because if I hadn’t I am quite sure that I would have went over my points for the entire week. Something that I wasn’t looking forward to doing.
So Friday rolls around and we went to have Chinese at the Buffet. I should have known better. I should have said we can go anywhere else but the Chinese Buffet. It is downfall especially when I can’t eat meat because it’s a meatless Friday. So needless to say we all know how salty Chinese is. So yeah, it helped me retain some water weight.
When I stepped on the scale at home I wasn’t surprised to see that all of that hard work that I had put in during the week was dashed upon the stone as how much water weight I was holding on to. Ugh. I knew that I had to just get on the scale at WW and face the music. It wouldn’t matter if I didn’t weigh in or not I knew that I had to do it.
I still lost weight which was good, but I can only imagine how much I could have lost had I not had Chinese food yesterday.
And since this last week I was trying to make up and lose some good amount of weight I went for an hour long walk. I was proud of myself. I had been able to walk just over 3 miles. So I figured that today after my meeting that I would do it again. I bought all kinds of things to help out because I didn’t want to get a blister. I felt one earlier this last Thursday when I walked before trying to form on my left Achilles. So I put a bandaid on my heel hoping that I would make it so that I could avoid one. Sadly it didn’t help.
About 30 minutes into my walk I start feeling the pain that I know that I am not going to be able to walk any longer and head to my car (because I had been walking on a track) and sure enough I took my sock off and there it was. I had wore a hole in my Achilles’ heel.
I like to walk. It gives me time to think. It give me time to come up with plots for writing. I wish that I could walk barefoot, but my soles are too tender for that. I am going to have to find some other way to walk with out having shoes on, because no matter the type of shoe I’m wearing I get some pretty terrible blisters. Maybe I can figure something out soon.
So if you don’t know, I am Catholic and this week started Lent so that we can prepare for Easter that is coming in six weeks. I really like Lent. It is so prayerful. Yes there is always that giving up or doing something extra for Lent, but it’s just a time to get closer to God no matter how you might do it.
In the years before I had my son we would go to Stations of the Cross on Friday nights, especially as I was preparing to become Catholic myself. I have thought about taking up that practice just by myself on Friday’s when my son is taking his nap. He would not be someone to take to something like that just yet. As he gets a little better about being quiet in a church type setting I will totally take him. But right now that boy couldn’t be quiet if our lives depended on it. Seriously.
With my life in the situation that is now, I am willing to get as close to God as I can. He loves me for me.
My week with food this past week was a decent one. I end up losing another 1.4 pounds. I am getting excited for the next decade in my weight loss. Soon I’ll be in the 180’s again. The last time I was there was before I had my boy. I had lost down to 184.4 before I got pregnant. Once I get down there it will be the lightest that I’ve weighed in 13 years. It shocks me that it has been that long since I was that light.
I’m ready to visit the past in my weight. I want to weigh that much again and less. And I’m going to.
I’ve lost 6 of the yellow ones :O
Well this last week I was able to post another good loss on the scale. I’m always happy to see any amount come off, but so long as it is in 1 pound increments I am incredibly happy. I lost another pound to put me at 31.6 lost. Just another 73.6 left to go. I can’t wait to have a smokin’ hot body.
I’ve been trapped inside this fat girl for so long I don’t know how long it will take me to understand that I’m not fat anymore. The mental battle is just as hard as the physical one. I know that it will be very strange to me to not have to buy clothes in the “women’s” section anymore.
Clothes in the “misses” section are cheaper than the ones in the “women’s” section by the way, by at least $3. Which can be understandable because there can be just so much more fabric involved vs. the smaller clothes. Manufacturers have to pay for it some how too.
My mom and I went to Sam’s Club the past week and she had me pick up the bulk litter for her cat. It was 42 pounds. To think that at one time I carried more than half of that on my body is mind boggling. Seriously when you lose 20 pounds go to the grocery store and pick up a 20 pound bag of dog or cat food. While you hold it think to yourself I used to have this weight on me that I couldn’t readily put down. No wonder my knees and back hurt. When I lose 40 pounds I’ll do it again.
Even though I have a feeling that this coming week is going to be stressful I have to keep remembering that it isn’t about eating to comfort myself. I have to find other ways to do it. If it’s reading, writing, or knitting/crocheting. I better do it, because those at least occupy my hands. I know I’m going to have to get some walking and dancing in there too.
Here’s to another good week.
So this evening I decided that I would go through my fridge since it was trash night. I got rid of a lot of trash out of there. That made me happy. I really need to clean the shelves and things in there when I get a chance before I go shopping for groceries and fill it back up. And in the back there was a bottle of Cabernet Sauvignon from 1999.
So with dinner I had two glasses and it has done wonderful for my nerves. Lately I’ve been feeling stressed, and tonight it’s just melting out of me. Tomorrow I’m sure that it will all be back but for now…
It’s actually kind of too bad that I can’t sell the large amount of alcohol that I own on eBay. I’m pretty sure that they frown on that especially the authorities. But since we have a couple of bottles of wine I figure I might as well drink them (just not all at once *wink*).
And even though I am having my wine tonight I am still counting it with Weight Watchers. Because with Weight Watchers you can eat like a normal person. All you have to do is track it!
So today is my weigh in day at Weight Watchers. When I got up on the scale today I dropped another 1.4 pounds. That made me feel awesome! Then the wonderful lady that weighed me in told me that because I was doing so well my Daily Points Target went down by 1. 😦 And here I just got used to the 29 that I had before. I normally fluctuate in weight on the week following a point drop because I’ve lost that extra point to play with. Change and I aren’t usually a good thing. And then after a sushi lunch out I got the fortune cookie that said “You will make change for the better.” That was just what I needed. Maybe I should ask for fortune cookies before I eat. LOL!
I was proud of myself this week with following the WW plan. I tracked almost everything except last night because I knew that I had enough points to handle the buffet that I was going to without going over board. If something tasted salty I didn’t eat anymore of it. I stuck with veggies and un-sauced meat. Now I just need to keep at drinking water.
While I was munching away on my plate of sushi I get an email from the district leader for AVON telling me that they were having an Event just a couple of doors down from where I was at the restaurant. So I decided (especially after I got that fortune) that I needed to go down a couple of doors and see what was happening! From now on I’m going to do some AVON Events on Saturdays! Next Saturday (February 9th) I’ll be in Leeds, AL at the The Shops of Grand River in the Wilson’s Leather Outlet! So come by and say Hi! We’ll be giving out samples and catalogs.
Change is always right around the corner. There is always something. If life was always a straight road it would be pretty boring. We make important decisions everyday and even little ones can have a big effect on your life. It has been a big decision to keep on working on losing weight, and it was a big decision for me to start selling AVON. But it is little things that help with those big decisions and they guide you to do what you need.
The bane of my existence.
In High School my weight and I mostly got a long. I was about 125 pounds. I was active because of the job I had. It wasn’t until I actually went to college when the weight started to creep up. I wasn’t in an active job anymore because I sat behind a desk. I ate things that were full of sodium and carbs that were obviously not my friend, and my weight moved up to 175 by the time I graduated college. It’s hard to believe that I gained 50 pounds in a span of 2 years. But that’s what living on Ramen and Mountain Dew will get you.
After I finished my first degree I left for the south with my fiancee. Where I got a stressful job and continued to go to school. My weight exploded and I was the heaviest that I had ever been. I got up to 210 before I started to try and lose weight before my wedding. I lost down to 190 before I got married.
After I got married I made it up to 240. I couldn’t believe it. I was trying to get pregnant. I knew that wasn’t going to be healthy for me or my baby to be that weight. So before I got pregnant I started Medifast and lost about 60 pounds. Right at 190 I got pregnant so that put the kabosh on losing anymore weight for the time being.
It wasn’t until my son’s first birthday that I decided that I needed to get on the ball and start to lose weight for good. I joined Weight Watchers for the third time. I knew that it was a program that works. Because all you have to do is keep track of how much you are eating to lose weight. It’s not that hard. I lost about 25 pounds within about 6 months. And then I stopped. I was right back at 200. It was like there was a terrible wall that I just couldn’t get past.
I never quit Weight Watchers this time. I kept coming to meetings. But for whatever reason that was plainly stupid I just couldn’t keep on track. Excuses were every where and I was more than willing to keep throwing them out. After Thanksgiving of 2012 I decided that I needed to get back on the ball. 2013 was going to be the year of the new Jaime. It was going to bring lots of change and I wasn’t about to let the stress that I am going through derail me this time. Just because I might be stressed doesn’t mean that I have to feed that emotion.
I have this goal of making it to my goal weight by the end of 2013 which will be at 120 pounds. Right now I’m 196. 76 pounds might be a little much for the end of the year but I’m going to fight for it. And if I don’t make it to goal weight I want to get as close to it as I can be. I would love to be in the 170s or lower by July.
I know it’s a journey and that it won’t be over for a very long time. But this time I’m going to follow through. No one is going to hold me back because I am the only person who decides what goes in my mouth, and what and how I am active. Feel free to join me in this journey I know that we all need support too!